Wish List

So yeah I met a great guy and all that jazz...but there's someone else I'd rather be with. I'm not sure why my heart keeps pushing me in a different direction. It's crazy. Here I am wanting to be with someone that is emotionally unavailable to me. I'm trying to fight through it, seriously. I just don't know how to. It for damned sure isn't for lack of wanting to. I'm starting to cut people out of my life now and I'll cut everyone out if I have to. I just wonder why the ones I want don't want me and vice versa. Finding compatibility and mutual attraction all in one place would be so ideal. Dear Santa, bring me a new heart and mind. These are broken. Thanks.