Time to Double Up

Well as of 2/7/11 I'm one half of a new dynamic duo. A brave, new, daring, dynamic gay force sent to save the land from injustice, poor hygiene and bad dressers. I'm just kidding but I'm no longer single. Officially. I wasn't sure if I wanted it to be on the 7th or the 8th. Still conflicted. I may have a talk with him about it tomorrow...or today or whatever the fuck day it is. I suppose it doesn't matter but I'm weird about even and odd numbers. I really like even numbers except the number 6...and I don't like odd numbers except the number 7. The number 8 is my favorite of them all... Oh well, fuck it! As you can see I'm over thinking yet again. Oh and I'm sick of this snow shit in our area. Just sick of it.

Edit: I'm cool with the date now since the numbers add up to be even. I know, it's weird and OCD-esque but it's part of me. Deal with it bitches.

Need a job? x Your church? No thank you.

This post originally started out about Future Chris, but I'm not sure how much I'll blog about him going forward. If we make things official I'll update on that and other eventful happenings, but I'm going to make an effort to keep him out of the updates if we become a couple. I'm not sure if that will be possible, though. Anyway, I had to go to the minor medical center's urgent care facility around the corner from my apartment earlier this week. I'll spare you the details, but let's say that I was burning and leaking. Just kidding! I haven't even been having sex so umm...no. However, I was having to urinate frequently and it did burn. I thought I was gonna piss myself before the doctor saw me. Turns out I have a urinary tract infection so I was prescribed some meds. There are 2 ladies who work at the front desk. One lady is Caucasian and the other is African-American. One lady didn't appear to be doing much behind the counter other than talking to one of her friends or a family member on the phone. I take that back, she was working, but she wasn't assisting any patients. She didn't really say much at all to anyone waiting. The other lady was very sweet and attentive. She was constantly smiling and going out of her way to be extremely helpful. An older couple commented on how much it appears she loves her job. I concurred. My doctor asked me to call the clinic yesterday to insure that she had me on the right antibiotics. I called and got Ms. Unpleasant Attitude. She said her name is Diane. Yes, I take names. She was perplexed as to why I would call and seemed to be inconvenienced by it. She finally decided to put me on hold to check to see if my culture had come back. When she returned to the line, she nastily explained that it wasn't back and that a nurse should call me and she doesn't know why I called. In my mind I said, "I called because the doctor told me to you stupid bitch. Didn't I already explain that to your dumb ass?" My oral response was that I only called because the doctor indicated that I should both face to face and on my discharge papers. She was still annoyed and said the culture wasn't in yet. I hung up. I called back several hours later and got this bitch again. I was so hoping it would be the pleasant helpful lady, but no. I was to endure more of Diane's tongue lashings. I just said ok and hung up this time. If I have to go up to this clinic next week and go behind the counter and snatch Diane up, there will be an opening available for anyone who works in or is looking to work in the medical field. Oh yeah, take a wild guess which lady is Diane... 

One of my coworkers feels the need to keep inviting me to her church. I keep telling her that I have my own church and I'm fine. She's asked me 2 or 3 times. Yesterday was the most recent attempt. I said I have my own church and asked why. She said she knows but she just wants me to come with her. If you know me, you know that I haven't been to MY church in a while. I definitely don't want to go to hers. If it's some place that they're going to be shouting, jumping, hollering, or touching me, we will have a problem and she wouldn't invite me back again. Especially, if someone touches me... I'm trying to find a tactful, yet more forceful way to decline her invitations. Please help me out if you have any suggestions. I don't want to call her a stupid bitch, but if I don't have a better solution by the next invite, that will be my response. 

Motherfocker!

So things have been ok with Future Chris. We've spent a lot of time talking/texting and hanging. Not sure how far things will go, although I'm hoping for more than just friends. For some reason I can't get in touch with New Chris. I have some mail for him. I may just take it to his apartment. There really isn't much else going on with me besides my usual neurosis and insomnia. I got my w2... Is that newsworthy? I'm doubting it. Oh................I went to The Happy Mexican and the movies with my coworkers last night. I was so fucked up! I know I fell asleep at some point during Little Fockers. It was good... I was just sloshed like a motherfocker. Yes I spelled it that way purposely. Was supposed to go to this http://www.tsunamimemphis.com/ tonight but I didn't see anything that I'd ever eat on this menu and it's a little bit pricey for me. Maybe we'll pick something else. Well that particular friend just informed me that she can't go out tonight so idk. May have an outing with a different friend(s) tonight. Everything's up in the air at this point. I finished the Charmed DVDs so I guess I'll go back to Avatar. I was thinking about TrueBlood but not in the mood right now and The Boondocks episodes are hit and miss. Avatar will make me laugh and that's what I need. A good laugh and cuddling would be nice. But maybe I'm being greedy. I've been holding that boy hostage 3 weekends in a row. Don't hate me because I like to indulge in decadence. I'm a Taurus. It's my nature. Oh and even after that whole new Zodiac sign and shit I'm STILL a Taurus. I see why y'all mad and gone stay mad. LOL.

Small update

Been a while since I've done this and I apologize. I need to just make time to do it possibly on a weekly basis even if I've had an uneventful week just so that I stay in the habit of blogging. It's been a rough year and the first month isn't even over yet LOL. Work has been super stressful and I just had a fucking root canal today. I thank God for the lortab because it's numbing my body and my mind. I need that because of physical pain and the shock of the bill. I've been trying to eat so that I can take my antibiotics but it's a real struggle. I'd rather be drunk. I'm so over this!

On to some good stuff... I've kinda been trying my hand at this whole dating thing over the past few months. I haven't really been too successful at it either FYI. I've met some great guys but they just haven't been the right guys. I'm no longer seeing the psychologist because of a few reasons. I think my biggest issue with him is that he's a minister and I try to stay away from the clergy or anyone who's deeply entangled in the church. Since him I've met a few guys, 2 of which live very near me in my apartment complex. That freaks me out a little bit. One of them has a "roommate" and their relationship worries me a bit. Supposedly they were going to try a romantic relationship but changed their minds about it. I should take a picture of my face right now and post it, but I won't. Those who know me can imagine it.

Currently, I have an interest in yet another guy named Chris. There are actually 4 guys named Chris that have significance in my life. I've been calling this one "Future Chris," partially because I'm hoping that we have a future together and I've been watching my Charmed DVD sets. I happened to meet him around the same time that Chris came from the future in case any of you are fans of the show. If not, eat a dick. Just kidding. But errumm...yeah I'm really into Future Chris, but he's a bit standoffish at the moment. I think his last relationship did a number on him, which I can totally relate to. We've had about 3 dates and I really like him a lot. We spent the whole weekend together last week. I'm going to try to be patient with him, but in the mean time I gotta keep my mind occupied. Shawn has been encouraging me to see other people, which is difficult for me to do when I have such a strong interest in one. I'm going to make an effort but I can't make any guarantees. Lortab is kicking in now and I'll probably be in and out of sleep.

Wish List

So yeah I met a great guy and all that jazz...but there's someone else I'd rather be with. I'm not sure why my heart keeps pushing me in a different direction. It's crazy. Here I am wanting to be with someone that is emotionally unavailable to me. I'm trying to fight through it, seriously. I just don't know how to. It for damned sure isn't for lack of wanting to. I'm starting to cut people out of my life now and I'll cut everyone out if I have to. I just wonder why the ones I want don't want me and vice versa. Finding compatibility and mutual attraction all in one place would be so ideal. Dear Santa, bring me a new heart and mind. These are broken. Thanks.

Christmas Spirit

A couple of nights ago, I met this guy in person that I've been conversing with via phone and text. It was a date to be exact. We'd been vibing pretty well and I guess I was taking too long to ask him out properly, so he made a move. I was surprised and a bit pensive about going out to dinner with him honestly. He's 35, 5'10, brown skinned and built like a body builder...short dreds...very attractive...PhD...SHUT THE FUCK UP KENDAL and you know why. Anyway, he's a very nice and caring guy. We've gotten to a point where we talk daily now, so I guess it was time to meet. We had dinner at Outback and it was awesome. He made me laugh the entire time. Our server, Natalie, was a bit sweet on him. So, the running joke is that he was flirting with her all night and ignoring me, which is totally untrue. We're probably going to hit up the movies this weekend but not sure what we're seeing or what time. I'm also supposed to be helping with a Christmas tree or something, but he mentioned wine so that's the only part I'm totally sure about. Fuck that tree! Can we get to the stocking stuffers and unwrapping? Ok, I kid, I kid! There hasn't been any sexual contact and probably won't be. I want to be around for a long time, not just a good time. I did palm his ass like two basketballs when he hugged me good night, though. What? You would have done the same.

Holiday madness & other goodies/baddies

I have been intending to blog for quite some time now but you know they say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. I haven't really been motivated much, plus my laptop was possessed or something. I finally broke down and got a netbook, so maybe I no longer have an excuse other than being tired (or lazy)? So I drove home to Louisiana for Thanksgiving and it turned out to be pretty good for the most part. I think that this is the first holiday in years that I've spent time with both my younger brother and closest cousin. It was almost a little weird. We grew up together and haven't seen each other or spoken in so long. We were all very close in the past so now...I don't know. I wasn't anticipating the meeting with my cousin at all. I'm not sure why, though. She and I were inseparable growing up, but as the years have passed we've grown apart. Partially due to my moving away and partially due to her ever changing phone numbers. Somehow, we just started talking again like nothing ever changed. It was really nice seeing her and hanging out. I was almost tempted to move back, but then I woke the fuck up. Every time I go home, I have a crazy cousin story and this time I have two. I love this woman dearly, but she used to be umm...very promiscuous. Ok, she was a hoe. So anyway, when she told me she's now doing mission work I was like say what now? That was the first thing that threw me off, but not totally surprising. Her family is heavily involved in the church. That was a soft blow. I noticed that there was umm... a hole in the living room window from the porch where we were sitting and inquired about it. She told me her brother was involved in a bit of a scuffle LAST FUCKING YEAR and her dad refuses to get it fixed. He feels that since my cousin broke it and said he'd fix it, that it won't be fixed until then. Really? So that's how we do? I can't support his shit on any day of the week. It's getting too cold for this type of bullshit. I was telling my friend Kendal about it and he wanted to hang up on me. *sigh* 

Anyway,she updates me more about her brother and what's been going on in his life and then he shows up. He now has 2 children and he's now going by the name Apostle. He feels that it's his job to tell as many people about Jesus as possible - even if he has to spam them on Facebook with viral videos apparently... I thought he'd deleted me as a friend, but his profile was reported for harassment and deleted. He posted 30 links to a video about Jesus to the BET Facebook profile. I don't know why he felt that more than one was necessary. So now he can only add 2 people a day. If he requests more friends, he's reported for suspicious activity and they suspend his account. Crazy, right?

Now, hanging with my brother is something different. I miss it, but I know that we will eventually kill each other if we spend too much time together. I think that we spent just enough time together this holiday season. I'm not even going to talk about the rest of the family right now because my soul can't handle any more.