Nice guys

Sorry, but I'm random today...


Lesson 2 - Just because someone has a nice conversation with you and he is affable, it doesn't mean that he's interested in dating you. He may just be a nice guy. 

The Ask Once Rule

The Ask Once Rule: If you have to ask someone to do an activity with you more than once, they're really just not that into you. Even if we dislike certain things, sometimes we like the person that much more that we'd make the sacrifice. If not, find someone cuter and smarter.

Sexy weekend, stupid week

A week ago I met someone face to face that I've been chatting with online and on the phone. He's a lot of what I actually like in a partner... sexy, intelligent, cultured, freaky, talented, sweet, funny, passionate... I could go on and on. We had a great time together and I honestly didn't want it to end. Unfortunately for me, he lives out of town. I'm not sure when or if I'll see him again but I'd certainly like to. I know that I could fall for him easily if we were around each other regularly. Just his touch stimulated every nerve ending in my body.

Since my great weekend, everything has been kinda shitty. My shoulder has been hurting for a week (no clue why) and my job and coworkers have both been getting on my nerves. I had a lead rep at my desk to assist with something and he began to check my email. Yes, you read that right. I asked, "Why are you checking my email?" His response, "Because I'm nosy," was followed by a goofy laugh that made me want to gut him like a fish. He was the first dumb fuck in the office that I had to deal with yesterday. I told my supervisor and everyone else that he's not to be back at my desk..I may throw acid in his face if is. The second bitch apparently has a listening problem. He came over to my area to ask a different lead rep for some assistance that really only a full supervisor could provide. Since he was in the area and I needed to speak with his supervisor, I asked if she was gone for the day. He replied that if she was at her desk, he wouldn't have come to my neighbor's desk for assistance. Wrong answer homeboy. So now I have the fuck you face on... I said, "If you had been listening, you would have heard me ask if she's gone for the day, not if she's at her desk. I know that she's not there because I've been over there to ask her a question." His response was, "Oh," and a blank stare. Judge Judy is right. God gave us one mouth and two ears for a reason - so we can speak once and listen twice. If I have to repeat myself to one more stupid motherfucker at work, I'm probably going to go off. Please pray for me that I keep my job. I do not want to turn to doing porn/escort/prostitution (all the same shit really) or pole dancing. I don't think that I'd be good at any of them, but with this economy I can't rule them out. I don't need any more strikes against me with God so if you know of any wholesome, Christian jobs that are hiring, put in a word for me and don't tell them of how I seduce all the men at my jobs into stalking me...

#FutureLove

You've got me wondering what you look like... Your scent... How you taste... I can imagine the way you'd say my name as we greet each other. I'm trying to figure out your interests and desires... What turns you on? Does your walk have a quick cadence or do you walk like a pimp? What's your fashion sense? You've got me wondering about you, Future Love. What's your name? Can I get your number? Do you like to text? Sext? I hope you're not sending these pictures to everyone, Future Love. What do you like? Do you prefer to cook a meal together at home or would you rather dine out? Are you a picky eater? I am. I bet you're a bit spontaneous and adventurous. Me? Oh, I'm a bit shy and conservative until you get to know me. I like all kinds of movies but comedies most. What about you? Would you hold me at night when I'm feeling lonely, Future Love? Are you patient? Are you kind? Do you have any talents? Better yet, tell me your flaws first so that I know upfront how hard of a fight I have. I'm a realist but I'm also a romantic. Do you need a lot of attention? I do at times... Not groupie love, but Future Love. Not Future Whore (be it online or real life), not Future Liar, not Future Fuck, not Future Game Player, not Future I Only Want You When I Need Something, not Future Drug Addicted Trying To Use Somebody... Future Love who are you? Is it possible that you're already part of my present? I have so much to tell you and so much to ask but I'll save it for our future, Love.

Destination: Unlonely

So it's been a while since I've updated...I honestly have been unsure of exactly what to say. I've kinda been feeling someone lately but everything is up in the air right now. I'm hoping that we get to hang this weekend. I know, I know... Here I go again falling in like with someone, but he's a really cool guy! He's all artsy and handsome and he has a naughty side. There's a lil chemistry...I'm not sure where it's gonna go. I always end up taking the most difficult path. I could have just chosen the psycho that basically stalked me but I didn't really feel anything sparks there. I just want reciprocity...mutual attraction. I can't just settle. Maybe I'm crazy, but I want someone that excites me. Someone I can't wait to see everyday when I get off work even though I'm pissed with him. Someone who enhances my life...someone who celebrates me and makes me feel like desired. I'm not saying that's what's going to happen. I'm just tired of the journey and ready for the destination. There will be plenty of work to do when we arrive so I don't wanna spend all my time getting there. Ugh, I can't even update properly tonight. I just feel this whole post going to hell. I think my insomnia is fucking with my head.

Something wicked this way comes...

I won't be seeing the guy from my last post again because he was slick trying to force me into a relationship. He's a nice guy, but it's not going to work out. He just tried to force so many things to happen and the more he pushed, the more I pushed back. I told him we should get to know each other as friends and he got pissed. He then told me to lose his number and he'll lose mine. Some time after that he said that he's back with his ex and he's going to take things slow this time. I congratulated him... Why did he tell me later that he was "just joking" about getting back with the ex? Umm... who does that? Did he think I'd be jealous or something?? Wrong! I was relieved and then disappointed. Now I'm concerned that he may be a nut.

Oh and you may be wondering about the ominous title of the blog... Maybe wicked isn't the right word but something looms on the horizon for me. Not sure if I'll blog about it or not but I'm a bit anxious. Yes, I'm over thinking things as usual. I need someone to cuddle with. I'm taking applications for a new booski. Preferably 5'10 or taller with a beautiful mind...not whorish...ok I'm stopping. This isn't e harmony but can I catch a break without it being my heart? Sheesh.